“Beautiful sunshine, cloudless skies, no one to play with, nothing to do.
Living like this, the way I’m living at the moment,
is harder in the summer when there is so much daylight, so little cover of darkness,
when everyone is out and about, being flagrantly, aggressively happy.
It’s exhausting, and it makes you feel bad if you’re not joining in.”
“Sometimes I catch myself trying to remember the last time
I had meaningful physical contact with another person,
just a hug or a heartfelt squeeze of my hand,
and my heart twitches.”